Perhaps

It's hard to imagine what life would be, if it wasn't as is.
Everyday I look back at the choices I've made, and wonder what could have been, what would be, and who I am.

Perhaps if I had dated that one guy, perhaps if I had studied harder for that one test, perhaps if I had been there for my family/friends when they needed me...

Alas, I don't own a Tardis, so I can't go back in time to change what has happened, but I can very much choose how I'll live and act today.

I can choose to be more straightforward about guys I like, I can choose to take better care of my mom while she battles cancer, I can choose to listen to my friends when they need to talk (instead of making conversations about myself).

I want to be a better person, I'm trying to be a better person, and hopefully it's just a matter of time before I am a better person.