Of Robots and Tardis

It's pretty common knowledge that I classify myself as a "geek".
The thing is, I never expected my friends to really embrace it and help foster it. Every day I feel so thankful for my friends, they always know how to make me feel accepted and cared for.
I still  have all these insecurities from when I was a kid, and despite my outwardly confident appearance, I'm uber insecure on the inside - but I always feel much more okay with myself after a good talk with friends.

So Yesterday, a good friend of mine gave me this gift he got for me when he visited MIT.

Uber exciting stuff, it's a ROBOT HEADPHONE SPLITTER. See, I have this robot hoodie, and it matches ! It's really exciting.


Also today.. I got a DISAPPEARING TARDIS MUG from one of my best childhood friends. Ahhh ! So cool ! Or Hot ! or... both? It MOVES. It.. it's just great.

Perhaps

It's hard to imagine what life would be, if it wasn't as is.
Everyday I look back at the choices I've made, and wonder what could have been, what would be, and who I am.

Perhaps if I had dated that one guy, perhaps if I had studied harder for that one test, perhaps if I had been there for my family/friends when they needed me...

Alas, I don't own a Tardis, so I can't go back in time to change what has happened, but I can very much choose how I'll live and act today.

I can choose to be more straightforward about guys I like, I can choose to take better care of my mom while she battles cancer, I can choose to listen to my friends when they need to talk (instead of making conversations about myself).

I want to be a better person, I'm trying to be a better person, and hopefully it's just a matter of time before I am a better person.